Moral of the Story...

They say people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. If you follow my blog, you know that a few years ago a relationship ended and as I reflect on that relationship I see that, that relationship had a huge reason for the both us. My role was to grow him up. Require him to step into his "KINGdom" if you will. His role in my life was to make me patient. Patient with God. I was taking this into my own hands and determined to make things go as I had planned but God gave me this situation to require me to seek him first and remind me that things are on his call.

After that relationship crashed and burned, I  was listening to some motivational CD and the woman said that she and her husband wrote the vision down and watched it come true. Soooo, that's what I did. I wrote down what I wanted my husband to be and talked to God about it. After, that I went out with a couple of guys with in 6 month time frame and after each date, I came back and talked to God about what worked and what didn't. Eventually guy #3 comes along, really good guy who met MOST of the criteria I listed. We got to a point where I saw a few "warning" signs that this wasn't quite what was looking for; a few things were a little reminiscent of my crash and burn situation. Eventually it fizzled out and I let it.

After that, I agreed to focus on trying to clear my mind and getting through life's current obstacles. I'd sign up for EHarmony in July once my life calmed down. But remember I'm on God's time.
By fate's chance or God himself, somehow or another I ended up with yet another date. The day and time came for this date and to be honest I really didn't want to go. I just wanted to enjoy my first free weekend at home with a beatless face. Something inside of me said, get you behind up. God could be sending you your husband. I go on this date and the countless ones that followed. I will not lie to you people, it was right out of a fairy tale. If I told you, you wouldn't believe it, Hell, I didn't believe it!! But unfortunately people, Walt Disney was not the author on this fairy tale, because it ended (or did it) with no "And they lived happily ever after..." Like really?!?!

This is totally one of those situations where I should've cried, begged, pleaded, and done a bunch of other stuff to somehow or another convince that man to love me. BUT that's not me!! And Lord knows, I thought about it... long and hard. But I want I only want what is God sent. If it was sent by God, I wouldn't need to any convincing.

I could've left that experience and necked rolled, smacked my lips, flipped hair and said he is missing out, but I didn't and I don't feel that way. I try to take every experience as a learning experience for myself. God gave me almost EXACTLY what I asked for. Like Really.... why did he "take it back"? I wasn't ready for what I asked for and I wasn't where I needed to be. I hadn't done the things "required" of me. I feel like I heard God say to me, "Get up and work. You've had your moment to relax and rejuvenate. I showed you I can give you what you want. Now go do the work. Go get your house in order. Give your all on what I've called you to do. I will provide the rest."
My current focus is on just that.