Thankful

I’m the girl that a lot of times feels that no one is really “checking for me.” I’m not meaning in

necessarily a romantic way but just in general. I don’t think that I’d be that girl that if I threw this massive birthday party people would actually show up to it. If I just vanished, nobody would really miss me.  Pump ya breaks! I’m not suicidal or anything. I don’t do death/dead people, so I’m not trying to rush it. And in general I’m pretty pleased with my life. All things considered, I feel like I’m not doing too shitty in this thing called life in all the areas that really matter. At the same time, I don’t feel like I’m the most popular person in room and I am pretty okay with that.

These past few weeks have been an OVERwhelming to say the least. I am beyond appreciative and thankful for the pouring of support received these past weeks.  From the calls, thoughtful messages, visits, cards, help, thoughtful gifts, etc. I really appreciate it all! You know that you are doing something (or at least someone has) right in life when that many people are thinking about you. I know I can be that girl that fights battles that no one would ever know about and that sometimes feels lonely. It has been helpful to know that I am not.

As I continue this thing called life doing the work that my new “guardian angel” would continue to be proud of, I am thankful to all you for my full cup that I continue to pour from daily.