Thankful

I’m the girl that a lot of times feels that no one is really “checking for me.” I’m not meaning in

necessarily a romantic way but just in general. I don’t think that I’d be that girl that if I threw this massive birthday party people would actually show up to it. If I just vanished, nobody would really miss me.  Pump ya breaks! I’m not suicidal or anything. I don’t do death/dead people, so I’m not trying to rush it. And in general I’m pretty pleased with my life. All things considered, I feel like I’m not doing too shitty in this thing called life in all the areas that really matter. At the same time, I don’t feel like I’m the most popular person in room and I am pretty okay with that.

These past few weeks have been an OVERwhelming to say the least. I am beyond appreciative and thankful for the pouring of support received these past weeks.  From the calls, thoughtful messages, visits, cards, help, thoughtful gifts, etc. I really appreciate it all! You know that you are doing something (or at least someone has) right in life when that many people are thinking about you. I know I can be that girl that fights battles that no one would ever know about and that sometimes feels lonely. It has been helpful to know that I am not.

As I continue this thing called life doing the work that my new “guardian angel” would continue to be proud of, I am thankful to all you for my full cup that I continue to pour from daily.  

I Believe!

I don’t understand how people don’t believe in something. Today is Resurrection Sunday and as I sat in church today, I realized I don’t understand how people who don’t believe in something, make it day to day. When I was little Christmas was sooooooo much better when I REALLY believed in Santa. Life now is soooo much better that I believe in a higher power. I am not the most religious person on the planet and really don’t go to church as much as I should, but I totally understand the benefit of believing in something greater. I am not saying who or what to believe in but for me knowing that God is has the power to work out all of my problems makes life so much better.