The Bachelorette- The Setup

After being sucked into the Royal wedding hype I made the decision to make myself more "available" to date. I decided to really embrace dating in 2018. The traditional way was not working. So, I reinstalled Tinder on my phone. I did it for a hot second a few years ago and wasn't really feeling it but I decided to give it another go. Yea, didn't work for me again after someone asked if I was into casual dating (I read sex.). Scrolling my timeline, I found a link to an article about the best dating sites. Match told me I could browse for free so I did. 
I created a real basic profile. I picked a few current pictures. I made sure that the pictures were a solid reflective of my current self. I couldn't use the throwback cheer picture missing about 30 pounds of my current self. Lol. I didn't want to be out here catfishing people. The information on my profile was accurate but vague. I even used a match created generic summary that reflected who I am. 
Let's see how this goes.... 
Btw I didn't drop that coin... yet.

2018... Look Back at IT.

Looking back at 2018, I realized that 2018 has forced me....
Forced me to do what I said I was going to do.
Forced me to choose me.
Forced me to get me to get to know me.



I've been humbled. I've watched my friends living their best lives and I've just been just cheering from the sidelines. I've waited for my win (still waiting). I've been a bitch. I've had to let/force fuck boys to walk. I've collect a few bouquets. I've had to intentionally protect my space. I've online dated. My ass has out grown EVERY pair pants  I owned. Therefore Old Navy has gotten quite a few of my coins. I've been in my own way. I've been guarded. I've been open. I've prayed and read. I've journal-ed. I've sat and not been able to answer what the fuck makes me happy and what I like to do. Like what thheeee fuck! I've drank wine... bottles of it... sometimes by myself. In 2018, I've been trying to figure out what my best life is and live it. I've allowed him in my space some days. Some days he's not worth mentioning. God has a way of giving you what you need, when you need it. I've been trying not to live in comparison to your wins. I've been trying to figure out what happiness looks like for me. I've been up and I've been down. I've been trying to make it through this thang called my life. Some days were good. Some days were bad. 

HOWEVER, my body lowkey outchea lookin' like Rihanna in these streets.... my ass fat, hair growin, skin glowin' and bills paid. I'm not mad atcha 2018, you or the woman I'm becoming...



Most Impactful Reads 2018: The Wait/ We are Going to Need More Wine
Favorite Celeb 2018: Cardi B./Gabrielle Union
Favorite Artist to Vibe to 2018: Ella Mai/ H.E.R.
Favorite Album to Boss Up to: Everything is Love
Most Impactful People: People: My village who has been praying for me, picking me up, and rooting for me all year.