The pursuit of myself and others to find ALL the things we are looking for in life.
WELCOME
Follow along as my friends and I "search" for love and happiness! I have many girlfriends spread across the country who also have friends who may have an interesting story for me to share. No worries friends and our "boos" your names are safe... I won't tell, if YOU don't tell. Look at each post not to see if you know who I am talking 'bout but instead to grow and help us grow as the wonderful women we are.
Don't ask me who I'm talkin' 'bout, 'cause I ain't tellin'! LOL
But don't forget to add your 2 cents.... I like to hear others opinions even if I dont agree.... but hey maybe you do agree....
I was the little girl who once upon a time believed in fairy tales. I'm a Disney Princess fanatic. I saw the the The Princess and the Frog like 3 or 4 times in theaters and I only took kids once. As life happened my belief in fairy tales dwindled.
Then a black divorced 36 year old woman became engaged to the wild and handsome Prince Harry. The game changed! I know, she's mixed, light skinned, with "good hair" but nonetheless she's still all the things I first mentioned. And that man LOVES that woman.
As I got up at 630-ish on a Saturday to watch The Royal Wedding, it gave this little black girl a little piece of hope. It gave me desire to get back in the game. It gave me the desire to curse out my friends for not setting me up on blind dates with the princes in their circles.
I always like to start a
new year with reflection of the past year. Luckily for me, my birthday is
pretty mid-way through the year. It's a great place to hit reset on my New
Year's Resolutions.
The past year has been hard. Not really a loud hard but a
silent hard. I've cried. I've bossed up. Been unapologetically me.
I'm hitting reset and refocusing on me, myself, and I.
Focused on being my best self and living my best life. Judas just know it's my
#jesusyear but I ain't Jesus. *wink wink*
As I travel along my path of life, I'm increasingly becoming the only really single girl in the room. As I continue along my path most of my friends have boyfriends, husbands, kids, etc. And then there is me. Just. Me. Here's the beauty of it for me, I'm increasingly ok with it just being me.
I get a lot of pressure to be a couple. "Do online dating" and "you should be with so and so" they say. But a HUGE part me of is okay not entertaining another Mr. Wrong instead of being selfish with myself.
I often find myself wondering why should I be in a huge rush to share myself with someone else forever. Especially when, a lot of men are not REALLY committed to their wives and significant others. Trust me and my screenshots on that one. Hahahaha!
A married co-worker of mine, has
told me again to write my desires in a husband. Sigh…. I did that already and I’m
still single…. You can check it out here. I was pretty darn close to that first list…
uggghhhh…. But I guess I’m back and square one. I was told to make it “working”
list and to be specific. So I am doing just that…. I’ve actually written it
with pen and paper and allow my experiences to craft what my heart desires. I
am going trust that God’s got me!
The top song on my Corolla Praise
and Worship playlist is “Won’t He Do It.” By Koryn Hawthorne. People who spend a lot of time know that I
throw “won’t he do it *hand wave and foot pat*” out A LOT!! But this song has
been a testament to my life… and my 2017. “I’m going to look back and be so amazed. How
it turned out is only his grace.”
I am coming out of 2017 stronger. I
have had lessons on standing up for myself and not taking other people’s shit. I
have gotten hit by a car I saw coming from miles away. I have had to learn that
I am not able to do it all. I’ve had to depend on other’s to help keep my
carefully balanced scheduled still balanced and going. I’ve had to commit to
get up from the table when love is no longer offered. I’ve had to TRULY accept
MY JOURNEY and be at peace with what’s mine. I can see your “happily ever after”
and be okay with it not being mine.
As I look at 2017, I see
foundations laid for the good things to come in 2018. Things I’ve prayed for in
the past possibly coming down the pipeline. I’ve seen the devil hard at work with the past
boos in my messages on various platforms. -_- The devil has been hard at work
trying to steal my joy but I have my eyes on the prize. So hey husband… you
have to be on the horizon. LOL If not, I am at peace sleeping alone. I am
walking into 2018 taking auntie Tracee Ellis Ross words to heart. I am going
truly live my life for me and put ME first. Yes, I am going to be a SELFISH
person and be that on purpose. In the past (I have a post in my heart about a
specific time) I have put other’s first and I am not 100% sure that worked out
in my favor. “I got mountains to climb in 2018. The enemy can’t stop me because
there is a calling on my life. “ I walk into 2018 by faith and not by sight
into my purpose. 2018 I’m ready because my trust in God has me covered.
Happy 2018 y’all be BLESSED and AMAZING. Keep
working towards your “well done!”
I was the little girl who once upon a time believed in fairy tales. I'm a Disney Princess fanatic. I saw the the The Princess and the Frog like 3 or 4 times in theaters and I only took kids once. As life happened my belief in fairy tales dwindled. 
